I shared this on my instagram, so I wanted to share it here as well:
Firstly, just wanted to say thank you all for all your messages of condolences, healing, & love. It means so much & it’s a blessing to have such support in a difficult time🙏❤️
2023 had been the best year of my life where it felt so perfectly magical, & then 3 weeks ago I lost my mom. But that’s the cycle of life. I think of it as Balance in the Force …balance of the good & the bad. Life isn’t always going to be perfect bc then our souls wouldn’t ever learn & grow. Challenges & hard times are inevitably always going to occur…
But when something unfathomable happens, we really have two choices. We can either let it destroy us entirely or we can give ourselves grace. We can feel all we need to, be gentle with ourselves, take it one day at a time, but still move forward & find a way to learn to exist with this change. & find a way to understand a good life is still eventually possible - different, but possible.
& I’m choosing the second option. My mom lives on within me & to find ways to persevere is to honor her.
Unfortunately grief is something we all have to experience at some points in our lives, it’s impossible to ever exist without grief…bc to live without grief is to have lived without love.
But that’s the thing too, our loved ones never truly leave us. Science says we’re made of energy. Energy can neither be created nor destroyed, it merely changes form. When we lose our loved ones it’s so hard to not have them in physical form, but they’re still with us. I know personally I’ve already received a lot of signs from my mom - in songs playing, numbers seen, and she even interrupted my dreams to tell me she was okay.
This is a new & different segment of my life now, & I’ll always miss my mom, I’ll always wish she had more time (I know she wished she had more time too) & I really wish she could be at my wedding, she was so excited for it, but the Universe had another plan. I know it’s not the end of our relationship. She’s a new guardian angel for me & I know we’ll have many, many more incarnations together.
🙏Thank you all again for your compassion & kindness it means everything❤️
